Having a moment........

I had one of THOSE moments today - you know a 'mother' moment. 

I wanted to

• pull the car over, get the kids out on the footpath and drive off without them,
• squish my sons face in his dinner cause he didn't want to eat it
• sit on the floor of our office with the door closed and rock slowly while humming softly to myself
• walk out!

Crazy 1 has reached that stage.  I am nearly 5, Mr Independent, painted on ears, arrogant stage.  I know you are thinking but how can someone with big eyes and long lashes like his be like that - well he just is!

There are 23 more sleeps until D-Day (first day of school) and I am excited.  Not because it means someone else has to deal with him or I will have some spare (?) time, but because he is SO ready to learn.  Everyone who has kids aged 5+ kept telling me they reached a stage where they were ready but I didn't really pay attention.  Well now I am - he is ready.

The other Crazy, the clown crazy is just in LOVE with pushing the boundaries and has a favourite pass time of tantrums.  It is just peachy! :)  He seems to have contracted a case of verbal diarrhoea - most of it is decipherable but others I find I just sit there and go 'oh yeah', 'oh wow', 'really?'  Its super cute but tiring at the same time.

It all got a bit much this afternoon on the way home in the car - the squealling, the talking, the yelling, the fighting, that I decided to make up a game.  I said to them 'lets play who can keep quiet until we get home' (brilliant).  It worked really well for about 100m (if that).  Crazy 2 gave in with a classic Shrek 2 (?) moment - the one where Shrek, Fiona, and Donkey are in the carriage on the way to visit her parents and won't shut up, so Shrek says 'can you just be quiet for 5 minutes'.  So he then starts making POP noises with his mouth.  Crazy 2 did this!!!!!  I couldn't help it, I absolutely lost the plot laughing and had a timely reminder that they are just young, full of energy and just wanted to talk.

Now as I look at them sleeping in bed (and listen to Crazy 2 snoring) I have shed tears over how nasty and self centred I was today.  My kids are fantastic and I love them to bits.  Bring on tomorrow and a chilled out mother!